It's a word...a word which refers to the feelings you have to an enemy...not just the feelings, but a single, special feeling...it is a kind of dread, or hatefullness or whatever you define it when you look into the eyes of your enemy. Like love, it is an all encompassing emotion, yet it does not refer to hatred, though one may hate their enemy as well, enemity is a special thing, alone to itself.
For me, the reason I bring it up is because I assumne so often now that the conspiracy and it's component parts made up of individuals are my enemies. I have enmity for them...
What that means is that when I think about selling my bodily fluids for 35 bucks so that I can buy food...I get a feeling about it...I assumne certain things...
Anyway, it would take some time for me to explain this to you fully, and it would take more time for me to explain to you fully why this is extremely important. But I will try to summarize it's signifigance here; if in all things I do I am expressing an attitude of enmity, it means that I am both totally defensive at all times, and totally focused on my next offensive act as well.
DO you understand?
Like the night on the rooftop when I was screaming at the top of my lungs and the conspiracy signalled me from a distance...their signal was clear, and it meant to stand down, it was the actual US military code for standing down...I was safe then, they were openly asking me to stop, letting me know I needed fight no more. I understood that, and in that moment that I understood that, I was no longer defensive, but I kept screaming then, to be offensive, becuase it exposed them terribly and I knew it...and having no reason to keep going, why did I?
Enmity.
It is the individual you can never negotiate with in good faith, you are at war, and it's a dirty war, the worst kind.
I wanted to tell you all this because I don't believe that think that the conspiarcy may not feel this enmity towards me...on many levels though I deeply suspect I am wrong.
It's important that you guys understand, we will NEVER be friends...and in all likleyhood, I will allways be waiting for an opportunity for revenge. However, Even should that not occur...do any of you understand how dangerous it is to have an alien being living on your world? And now one who hates you? Do any of you think this will continue indefinately? This controlling of my life? Then if not, what will happen in the future? You have sabotoged your own selves.
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